how can you tell?

How can you tell that our lives have changed? The fact that I haven't posted on the blog in the past month and a half is a good indication! I can't say that I'm busy - it's more that I'm ALWAYS tired. I have no energy and the most hours of consecutive sleep that I've had in 2 months is 5 hours - and that was only for one night! I'm not going to go on about how life-changing motherhood has been for me - those of you who are parents or have seen me in the past 2 months know what I mean.

I can't believe that it's 2007! It's seems like just yesterday that we found out that I was pregnant and I was thinking - I can't believe I'll have a baby in 8 months! Also, it seems like ages ago when we were basking in the warmth of the south of France. Either way, 2007 promises to be a very different year for me. I'm still not sure how it will go, but my New Year's resolution is to have a more positive outlook on things. I am generally a pessimist - Brian will confirm that based on my reaction to things the past 2 months (!!). So, I'm going to try to change my attitude and look at things more positively.

In fact, today was a perfect day to practice this. My parents left to go back to Toronto today. They have been here since early November, before Josh was born. I'm not sure how I would have survived the past 2 months without Mom and Dad here. They were so awesome. Mom helped with Josh, cooked and calmed my frazzled nerves. Dad helped with Nikita, fixed our computer and helped Brian with home maintenance stuff. Having both of them here was also a constant reminder to me that there was life going on outside of our home. We are going to miss having them here.

My first reaction to my parents leaving is anxiety and fear. I have already shed many tears at this prospect. Now, I'm just going to look at the brighter side of things. First, Josh is older and every day gets easier - my parents have already brought us through the hardest part. Second, now Brian and I have to figure out our routine and what works for us. This will also make things easier.

Wow, I can't believe how much I want to say here. But, I hear Josh starting to wake up, so it's time go. Here is a photo of him from Christmas. He is SO adorable. I can't believe how different he is in just 2 months!